Week Nine, In Review:
Weigh-in (I'm 5'10)
Week 1: 192.5 (-1.5)
Week 2: 191.0 (-1.5)
Week 3: 189.5 (-1.5)
Week 4: 188.0 (-1.5)
Week 5: 186.5 (-1.5)
Week 6: 185.0 (-1.5)
Week 7: 184.0 (-1.0)
Week 8: 185.5 (+1.5)
Week 9: 182.5 (-3.0)
Total loss so far: -11.5 lbs
As I said about last week, I don't really think I gained much, I just didn't lose anything because of messing up. So this week's bigger loss isn't all loss, it's water and then some loss.
I sincerely wish I was one of those people who can lose 2 lbs a week consistently, because I'd be closer to the 20 lbs mark than the 10 right now. Yes, I'm grateful for what I have lost, but I'm sad it's not made more of a difference. In nine weeks, I can only say that my pants are slightly baggy, not enough to get a size smaller, and that I learned that stress eating doesn't do it for me anymore. Nine weeks is a long time, and I expected more. I'm aware that if I were a shorter person, almost 12 lbs would be very noticeable. One of my friends (who is 5'2) said "12 lbs on me is like two sizes!" And I admit, I'd be pretty excited if that were the case.
On the other hand, I could be sitting here nine weeks later and not have lost a thing. I know I could be, because I was, SO many times. I am grateful that whatever needed to click over has clicked back over. I'm grateful I am losing weight, even if it's just slow and steady. I may be mad that it'll take me longer to get to my destination, but at least I know I WILL get to it nonetheless. I've been there before, I know how it feels to settle into the healthy lifestyle, and I know I have done so. It's simply a matter of time now.
Patience has never been one of my virtues. Fortunately persistence is.
Eating: This week was interesting because I was hungry. A couple weeks there I had that cold and it killed my appetite, but it came roaring back this week. On top of that, I was struggling with recovering my footing with eating after having the non-satisfying stress eating episode followed by the successful migraine eating episode. Having an unsuccessful bad eating day makes it easy to get back on track. Having one that DID help makes it easier for little things to sneak in for some bizarre reason. Fortunately, I caught myself before this attitude really took hold (because it's the beginning of the end if it does, believe me.) I pulled everything back in line with my goals.
Admittedly, with the stress my choices have not been fabulous. I missed the sale on chicken and I've been holding out until the cycle comes around again (it just did today, actually. Must run to the store!) So, my lunches have been a bit weird too. I have not really made dinner more than twice this week. Instead, there was a lot of upside down nights (breakfast for dinner), cereal and the like. The house stress and the major projects we're trying to work on here just sort of shut the kitchen (and me) down. Plus it's been over 80 degrees most nights this week. IN VERMONT!!! IN OCTOBER! What the heck!??
So, cereal. Lots of cereal. Cereal here and there for lunches, dinners, ugh. I know I'm still saladed-out, but I can add shredded-wheated-out to that list now too. The upside is that cooler weather is finally moving back in, which means cooking gets easier because I'm not trying to find cool weather items. I have fabulous healthy and low calorie recipes that everyone likes that include things like chili, lasagna, pumpkin sausage bisque and more. They're stuffed full of good stuff, and about 300 calories for a big serving. The kids have been asking for them for more than a month, and it looks like the weather will finally be cooperating!
Calories were on, food types were off, so I'd give myself a B for the week.
Exercise: Nada. It's house projects galore and I'm exhausted. I don't have the energy to do both, as exercising only takes energy away from me, and always has. I'm not giving myself a total F for the week though, because doing things like painting rooms and installing trim and so on are hard work too. So... a C-.
I think that comes up to a C+ for week nine overall.
I'm not sure what next week holds. We're waiting for this limbo to tip one way or the other with the house. If we get the contract on the other house, we continue on with the crazy here trying to get the house on the market. It we end up walking away because they're not reasonable, then we settle into a more normal pace on the projects and I get to add back in exercise and time for more productive food choices. So... I just don't know! More, I have the big art fair next weekend. I have MASSIVE amounts of work to complete by Thursday night, it's not even funny.
I do know I'm not feeling well again. I've started coughing again, and my stomach is upset. I think it's either allergies with this weird weather, or we're all getting sick again even though we just got clear of that other cold. I hope this doesn't manifest into a real illness!
*sigh* Sorry I'm not more positive about things today. I just simply don't have it in me to be positive right now. The best I can do is "trudging onward, hoping for the best."