It's true. No dodging it. I'm in a funk.
Did anything major happen? No, I think my overwhelmed self just finally cracked. My get-up-n-go energy to face all the stress finally got up and went. Without me.
So much stress, and even taking a few minutes to myself isn't an easy task. I shut my bedroom door to just lay down for a few minutes, and this happened:
|He likes to grip the door and shake it too.|
There's been no word on the house. They are supposed to have our counter offer to their weird letter one, but I haven't heard anything from my realtor for days. There's been a tragedy in their office, so I'm playing things low key and I only sent a gentle email, but no response. So, I'm still in limbo.
We stopped working on the house. Our gut feeling is that this isn't going to go our way. Or we're just depressed and can't face any more work while not knowing where we stand. Or both. Probably both. I also have a huge art fair coming up this weekend that I am working at a breakneck pace to get ready for because the organizers only let me know a week before the event that I was in it. (I have a lot of colorful names for those organizers now, I'm getting quite creative with them!) I'm painting like crazy, trying to build my stock for the two day event.
There's a bit of drama with my daughter, too. A lot of it is just about being a teenager, and I know that, but there is something devastating about how your heart hurts when you can't make it better. Having to tell your child that being a teenager just sucks and that this is all part of it, and that this too shall pass and then she'll be grown up and the world will be such a different place, isn't as easy as it sounds. It's true, but you can't make them believe that. It hurts because not only can't you make it better, you're basically telling them when they aren't in your house and under your care anymore, when they're all grown up and you've let them out of the nest and they don't need you, that their life will begin anew and it's not far away. It's the not far away part that feels so painful.
On a totally different note, and on the upside, I'm running a giveaway for a free custom ACEO painting. If you want to enter for it, here's the info:
a Rafflecopter giveaway
I also finished a few more paintings. As I said, working as quickly as I can right now!
If only I could shake this depressive mood. That is what it is. I feel depressed. It's probably overwhelmed, but it feels like depressed. I even went for a run today to try and shake it loose and up those endorphins, and the only thing I did was make myself more exhausted. Although, I'm still glad I got the run in. So, there's that!
Off to paint!